Stress

I'm a bit of stresser but how can it all crumble into a massive health snowball on my first big internship week.

I've always leaned towards total burnout work-wise because lets face it, its a little fun.
But I think even for me, I'm a little wiped out from all the stuff on lately.

I arrived in the Bay in one piece, its hot here in the afternoons and everything has fallen into place. But I've been on edge and overtly worried about waking in time for work, getting there and then actually producing the goods.

So in this stressful time (one week) along comes large pimples, a cold, the sorest throat possible, day long headaches, shivers and automatic cars- where is the clutch and why is the shift always stuck in park?

But while my body has a melt-down least some interesting stories have cropped up.
Went door knocking around Flaxmere when they had the 200 plus school brawl and then talked to a McDonalds owner when an employee exposed himself in the children's playground.

News isn't always palatable but you have to get it out there amongst it.

I'm not sure what to make of the medical miracles but I'm sure they will be solved with sleep in the weekend.

Risks

In our course there is becoming an overwhelming elephant in the room of where we will go from here.
We are driving on the avenue and side streets start to appear, is it really where we want to go or do?
Will we be stuck forever in this one way street if we take this path?

There is always fear with any choices as you constantly read about regrets and missed opportunities. In the latest TV Guide, stars comment on their regrets, namely turning down a part on a successful film or series.
I was struck by Henry Winkler's tale. He said he regretted not taking the part of Danny in Grease. He didn't want to be typecast after Happy Days but was unaware that he already was.
John Travolta went on to make big movies and he just went home.

I wonder what is worse thing you could become if you strayed from the professional journalism path. Your reputation could be a hack, a dark sided PR vampire or even an ex-journalist in 10 years time but is this industry so callous that you are forever tainted?

There are endless ways to become 'stuck' and still peddling the same trash in the future, but right now we have our fresh near-graduate status on our side. We have to strike while the iron is hot (love cliches) and try and make it sooner rather than later.

I've already thought and experienced all this doubt in a previous tech life. What is the point in worrying about mistakes you might make in the future.
You make decisions as the person you are today not what you could be 10 years from now.